I was reading over some old posts from when I was in Africa. Remember how exciting my life was then? It hurts my heart. I am desperately craving some sort of adventure or change. The more I think about it the more I wonder, is that okay? Why am I not content with where I am or the things I have? My life has potential to be adventurous, right? I mean, I'm a full time student and employee. That's an adventure. Or at least finding time to do everything and still get sleep could be adventurous to some. I have become so, dare I say it,...BORED!
I hate that word. I hate even more the way boredom consumes. It sucks the production right out of me.
I feel like I am floundering out in the middle of the ocean. I am desperately grasping for excitement and adventure, yet I know what I need to get back to the shore. Sometimes, I don't know if I want the safety of the shore or not, though. Does that even make sense? Am I just rambling? Probably so.
I don't know. I'm procrastinating doing my homework right now. I had some thoughts and no one to share them with. Why not make them public, right? Ha. I'm a little sad, a little bored, a little stressed, a lot complacent, and I hate it.
Anyway, just pray for me. I could use it.
ps- rereading this made me think of Pink Floyd's "Comfortably Numb"...just an fyi.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Saturday, February 5, 2011
Daniel 10
Then he said to me, Fear not, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your mind and heart to understand and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come as a consequence of [and in response to] your words.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
It's Been A While.
So... I haven't written anything on here in quite some time. Not very surprising, but a little sad. I was supposed to be blogging about my journey as a warrior of Christ. A big part of that journey was my trip to Africa last year. And it would look as if that is where my journey ended. That is if you only keep up through my blog. And maybe if you've been around me much, it wouldn't seem much different.
Last March I embarked on a journey that I expected to completely change my life. Did it? It definitely changed my heart. But I am really seeing no fruits of a life change. That my friends, hurts. No part of me really wanted to admit it, but for the last six months I have been blah. I was expecting major life changes and for everything to turn around. But nothing happened. So I continue to wait. And wait. And wait. And that's where I ran into this "problem" that I seem to be facing.
I have been waiting around for something to magically appear, instead of actively seeking the Giver of all things, the ONE who makes things happen. I've lost my joy. I've become stagnant, even bored with my relationship with Christ. So, what's a girl to do? Sit around a while longer and keep wishing things would change? Well, that might be what the normal girl does, but not me. I was created to be a WARRIOR in the Kingdom of the most high God. I'm going to have to fight to regain my life, my joy, and my relationship with Jesus.
That will be my journey for now. I am out to destroy the lies the devil has lead me to believe, and regain lost territory, and conquer even more for the Lord. As we head into Feb. 2011, I could use your prayers and encouragement. I will try to keep you updated and encouraged as well.
If anyone in the world is even reading this, God Bless you!
Last March I embarked on a journey that I expected to completely change my life. Did it? It definitely changed my heart. But I am really seeing no fruits of a life change. That my friends, hurts. No part of me really wanted to admit it, but for the last six months I have been blah. I was expecting major life changes and for everything to turn around. But nothing happened. So I continue to wait. And wait. And wait. And that's where I ran into this "problem" that I seem to be facing.
I have been waiting around for something to magically appear, instead of actively seeking the Giver of all things, the ONE who makes things happen. I've lost my joy. I've become stagnant, even bored with my relationship with Christ. So, what's a girl to do? Sit around a while longer and keep wishing things would change? Well, that might be what the normal girl does, but not me. I was created to be a WARRIOR in the Kingdom of the most high God. I'm going to have to fight to regain my life, my joy, and my relationship with Jesus.
That will be my journey for now. I am out to destroy the lies the devil has lead me to believe, and regain lost territory, and conquer even more for the Lord. As we head into Feb. 2011, I could use your prayers and encouragement. I will try to keep you updated and encouraged as well.
If anyone in the world is even reading this, God Bless you!
22 That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. 23 After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. 24 So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. 25 When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. 26 Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.”
But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.”
27 The man asked him, “What is your name?”
“Jacob,” he answered.
28 Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel,[f] because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.”
Genesis 32:22-28
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